Its a New Year

& I'm still stuck with last years problems. I'm getting closer and closer to my due date & lack of everything but clothes for this lil girl.

I thought with a new year things would be different,but household wise no one has changed,everyone is trying to depend on me(financially) & I'm just overwhelmed..  In fact I'm so stressed & tired, that yesterday while walking down the stairs to hang out with my father in law(shop for things for the kids) I fell down the stairs, & I hurt myself, but since I had the boys with me.. I sucked up the pain and pretended nothing happened. Stupid me, My back is in pain,but from what I can tell the baby seems to be fine.

I missed my drs appt today, something I haven't done throughout my entire pregnancy, I'm just getting really tired of doing it alone & no one really there just to say good job.

Tomorrow the kids will be in school, So I have to run to the clinic & get checked.. & maybe rest a lil. I hope.
Anyways I hope this yr starts to change.. cuz I'm scared its just going to get a lot worse when the baby is born

That is all for now

with love I (3boys4mom+1)

& the new year is about to begin

I have about 2 more months to get everything I need for this lil bugger on the way :(
at times I couldn't feel anymore depressed. I feel like my entire life will be on hold again, so I can take care of my daughter & my sons.

   The boys all got a lot for Christmas, including clothes which made me happy. Clothes are very necessary...
 I will be spending my New years with my daughters god mother :). I am really excited to get the kids out of the house, at least for one night before school begins again.
I cannot wait til I give birth, I feel like I cannot really do anything and It's taking a toll on me. I'm not use to just sitting around :(

Well I have nothing else really to say,
so until next time

With Love,
I(3boys4mom+1)