& the new year is about to begin

I have about 2 more months to get everything I need for this lil bugger on the way :(
at times I couldn't feel anymore depressed. I feel like my entire life will be on hold again, so I can take care of my daughter & my sons.

   The boys all got a lot for Christmas, including clothes which made me happy. Clothes are very necessary...
 I will be spending my New years with my daughters god mother :). I am really excited to get the kids out of the house, at least for one night before school begins again.
I cannot wait til I give birth, I feel like I cannot really do anything and It's taking a toll on me. I'm not use to just sitting around :(

Well I have nothing else really to say,
so until next time

With Love,
I(3boys4mom+1)

I had a preemie

I had a preemie and he is my pride and joy...

Not a day goes by that I thought I was going to lose him... 2 small to survive, but he had the will to grow. I was 15 1/2 two weeks until my 16th birthday. On the 22nd of June I went into labor,and on the 23rd at 1 in the afternoon I had my beautiful baby boy. He was small 4lbs 10oz, but he was all mines. He also had toxoplasmosis and they don't I wouldn't be able to care for him.. For the two weeks he was there I was at his side non stop. I finally got to take him home on my 16th birthday,Best gift ever. I love him dearly and I still do. My baby is 6 a bright boy in kindergarten. Out of all the things people had said,my son stands bright and tall.. I will never forget those times I thought I was going to lose him, those times I thought it was my fault. But all in all I am so proud to be his mommy, so proud to have him here... This is 2 my baby that continues to grow. Mommy is so proud of you and I'm happy I made the choice to keep you and give you a chance...

To all the moms dealing with preemies and to all that have maybe lost their child. THIS IS FOR YOU, Forever cherish what you have and forever watch them grow.... no matter your age or theirs LOVE is Forever.

Its go time

With 4 more day,yes 4 more days to Christmas... I some times think if telling my son's Santa doesn't exist was a good thing? I have a 6,5 and 3 yr old, lol sooner or later they were going to learn. I just don't want them feeling down when they realize "Santa"(I or my husband) didn't get them what they wanted.

See that unhappy face, that's because he still can't speak :( it really blows.

anyways so now in about 2 hours I have to go pick up 2 boys from school.

with love

I