And I'm still here...

Well first off Happy New Year... I'm way way late. I thought I would be in the shelter,but of course I've chickened out more than once. I need some sort of incouragement,someone to tell me I'm doing something right, I don't want to be told How much I will BE MISSED because this I know.

Well I've spent my New year doing nothing but sitting at home, I mean I don't believe anything will change... Nothing no one not a damn thing. I really really miss the way things use to be. I miss my phone to its like my social life.

So here I am tonight talking nonsense about nothing, Kids are in bed except one Aj... I remember in 06' when I was pregnant with him, and all I wanted to do was keep it my secret. But vomiting wouldn't allow it to happen. I miss those days when he was little, now he's three and a pain in my butt.. what is harder to deal with is the fact that he cannot talk.

It annoyings me beyond all things,because it is so hard to comprehend what he needs and/or wants. I just want to know what I'm doing wrong, what I'm doing right. I feel so miserable at times and other times I feel as if I could rule the world with my pinky.

Anyways I have nothing better to say.. so for now
WIth Love

I(3boys4mom)